is it just me or are we driving a wedge between us?

you can't always find fault with others if you see enmity growing between us. why don't you take a look at yourself? we all have a part to play - you can't totally shirk off your part in this and see faults in everyone else.

but do you really care if we are all friends or not? if others are really so important to you, who are we are to you?

and on the other side, why do you have to stay in your comfort zone? is it really that tough to talk to someone you don't usually do? but the world is beautiful, why don't you meet the world?

why is it that the world must succumb to your every need? isn't the world greater than you? are your own friends just mere subordinates to you? why can't u share the load some of the time?

sometimes when i see how everyone is behaving, i look at what i've gone through and done for the sake of others in the past and it all feels so farcical. what a fucking idiot i am to have not just grabbed everything for myself. you know how painful it feels now, when you just look at yourself and realize that you don't have a lot?

different factions? i'm not even in the universe anymore.



and you know what? tagging "relax la, bro" or "don't be so emo" on my tagboard or something may show the world you are a damn nice person or what, but believe me, caring is not just that. if you do care about the group, or for anybody with the male genitalias at all, perhaps changing how you act would be good.

why do i not come and talk to you? because you wouldn't care. and don't think i am trying to paint you in a bad light in everyone or whatever. no names have been mentioned in the above post, other than perhaps mine which will appear at the bottom. i have to speak out today because i can stand the hypocrisy no more. even if no one reads this, i'd have spoken my part. how about yours?


i just can't be that happy you see, because the world is pointing its spears at me.

today, i graduated from cj. and i am at a loss of words to express what i feel.

it's been a great 2 years where i've grown through great pains and joy. crazy stuff like exams and pw, crazier stuff like the countless wassups, funny dances and jacking derek. glad to have shared this journey with all of you. the friendships forged may eventually fade with time, but zero is an asymptote.

may the aspirations never die, friendships never end, laughter never lost, memories never forgotten and the love never end. :)

love you guys, 2t19.


and it is time to start being responsible for our lives.

(photos deleted because it messed up the template.)

ok, one more day of real school left. i think i will pretty much miss my class. but life always moves on, doesn't it? well, hopefully we will stay in touch and everything.

i'm wondering if i should take up that job in november. i don't really want to work my hols away. and i dun wanna do a clerical job. i rather be doing something in retail or what. yea, i'd rather mix with ppl for my job.

bummer. if we were lovers - all star united.

Let's take a walk into the sky
Conversing with the stars to fathom why
They're not afraid to burn
To lose themselves while turning into light

If we were Lovers
Like we were meant to be
Open arms, broken hearts
All the world to see
If we were Lovers
Loving like we say
Oh the ghosts of doubt
Would crash and burn away
If we were Lovers

The obvious
Will be implied
From the simple implications of our lives
If we don't get it right
I guess they're gonna wait a long, long time

An extraordinary Love
offers heal for hurt and kind for cruelty
Words are not enough
Revolution might begin with you and me

If we were Lovers [repeat 6x]
Then we would Love

spent today at home studying alone. decided to skip school so that i could like focus and all. well, got not much done. did the RJ paper. haha, at first i thought it was damn difficult, but except for a few tough questions here and there, it's actually do-able. and everytime i got something correct, i jumped about my room celebrating. haha my neighbours must think i'm mad. but that's what makes studying fun eh? try it! curse the question if it's tough, and then celebrate like a madman if you can do it.


nice song.. though i'm a little slow to post it only now.


Howie Day - Collide

The dawn is breaking
A light shining through
You're barely waking
And I'm tangled up in you
Yeah

But I'm open, you're closed
Where I follow, you'll go
I worry I won't see your face
Light up again

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills my mind
I somehow find, you and I collide

I'm quiet, you know
You make a first impression
I've found I'm scared to know
I'm always on your mind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the stars refuse to shine
Out of the back you fall in time
You somehow find, you and I collide

Don't stop here
I've lost my place
I'm close behind

Even the best fall down sometimes
Even the wrong words seem to rhyme
Out of the doubt that fills your mind
You finally find, you and I collide

You finally find
You and I collide
You finally find
You and I collide

so, today..

"praise God from who all blessings...." (the doxology)

*bang*

some murmuring from my left.

i looked, oh geezers. uncle tee wee knocked my guitar off the stand.

haha luckily today's message was "where your treasure is, your heart will be also." and i decided my treasure wouldnt be on anything on earth.

and that was the start of the 5 bad things that happened today. the other 4?

2. i took grace lim's carmel room key and forgot to return to her.

3. i took shi ying's beads thing and forgot to return to her also.

4. i left my shoe bag and cables in the sanctuary.

so 2 & 3 were returned, but my shoe bag and cables still lie lonely in the sanctuary.

and 5? tt's confidential now. but its quite sucky la. i hope it doesnt change anything.



and i'm pretty confused over some stuff now. maybe i should wait it out. but i must say, you are a wonderful girl no matter what. i don't think this or anything would shake what i think about that. so if you so need to, just come read this message yea?