hi my esteemed readers. i believe i've found a way to upload images to my posts. actually it's been there all along, just that i didnt know how to. haha.

ok, here's a picture of the guitar i want. well, actually one of the guitars i want. by this i mean the ones i can possibly get.















PRS SE Custom

and another one.




Epi Les Paul Goldtop. It is much prettier in person, really. or i would love some beautifully flamed LP.

ok, i'll just show you these 2 for now.hopefully, my parents will subsidise some, and i can earn some money, and my darling friends and reader, you, will contribute. then i can get one of these babies at the end of this year. :))



and i'd like to say i now have a bright lime-green coloured t-shirt which i don't think i'd dare to wear. i'd look absolutely like a prep boy in it. but maybe, i'll wear it for kicks. i don't think it is ugly though, really.

also got the salvador album. it is really good. i tell you, latinoes really have a way of vibing up the atmosphere and all. and they have a pretty good-sounding lead guitarist. but i love their style. lively!

and now i will go back to my boring life of studying for A's, trying not be discouraged by prelims, dreaming about owning a wah pedal and a new electric guitar, and the girl of my dreams whom will only be fascinated with me in my dreams. because i lead such a boring life, sigh.

so today, went to church a little early to help an fu pass some name tag thing to the greeters. then service was pretty ok. haha worship was a little different, but it was really meaningful. pro's and con's of having wordy songs? meaningful songs but not everyone can or is willing to go make it out the meaning of it all, especially if singing it the first time. and too many words lessens the meaning of each word i guess. diseconomies of scale? haha.

then the sermon was pretty ok. but i ended up wandering off in my mind. because the preacher(mr something kok something, can't remember. hehe.) asked us to read a portion of kings, about Elisha and i ended up reading up the entire story. haha. i can't stand the lure of good stories. guess the point of this sermon was to take things from the spiritual realm. but what i took home, was probably about doubt, especially appropriate since i was sleepless with doubt last night. the thing to do, when in doubt about the christian faith, is not to sing some happy songs and get over it, or to force myself to accept something so that it all makes sense or to turn away from this faith. instead, the thing to do is to wrestle with God, as Jacob did. and what Jacob said was "I will not let you go unless you bless me." that's what what i guess. hold on with all you have to God, and refuse to let go, no matter what.

sat with osagie today during service, and got him to write a little encouragement card for someone though he didnt properly have an angel in the angel and mortal game. he's a pretty cool dude. i bet he'll make it big over here in the S league one day, and maybe go on to more professional leagues. and he's only, 18/19? but really, it's a wonderful testimony that God can bring two ppl so different together, and we can treat each other with appropriate christian love. see how different we are? culture: African Vs Singaporean, Career: he is tasting success as a soccer player, i am still a lousy student, Interests: soccer player vs me who knows nuts about soccer(ever since leeds got relegated to div1), language: but his english is really much more singaporean skewed now, so much more understandable. praise God! so all u yfers out there reading this, you don't have to leave the job of befriending others to the job of ppl who are more "like" them. see?

lunch at ljs, which is pretty lousy because of lousy forks, then went to j8 for a while before heading off to city hall to get tini's present. ahh, damn tired. i kinda loathe shopping now. i wonder why girls can shop so much and still not get enough of it? give me a sunny day by the beach or in a nice cafe anytime please.


thank God, for a moment of reprive today. :)) you don't know how you brightened up my day. just seconds!

that special girl

Mr Brightside - The Killers

Coming out of my cage
And I've been doin' just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head
But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now

Let me go
And I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
Cus i'm Mr. Brightside

I'm coming out of my cage
And I've been doin' just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss
It was only a kiss

Now I'm falling asleep
And she's calling a cab
While he's having a smoke
And she's taking a drag
Now they're going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it's all in my head

But she's touching his chest now
He takes off her dress now
Let me go
Cus I just can't look
It's killing me
And taking control

Jealousy
Turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it's just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
Cus i'm Mr. Brightside

I never
I never
I never
I never


i can barely stand looking anymore. all i can do now is pray for the best to happen, for you. at least i am learning how to be less selfish. haha. i never knew how much it'd affect me, till my nights became so tormenting - being filled with either sleeplessness or nightmares. i don't know what to do other than making the best i can with my life and wait for my beautiful dawn.


be positive, mr brightside. :))