ouch, baby. like a thunderbolt slap across my face. left to right, heaven to hell.

jimmy holiday, it takes a lot of play
bury this sentence, hear me whisper sweet nonsense.


in a little daint house,
sitting right by the sea.
a room of black and green,
hanging memoirs of you and me.

leave the window open,
i'm coming back tonight.
can't find a way into your heart,
but through the window we'll play.

so long, so long, good night.
come on, come on, goodbye.

i wish there was an entry,
how sweet we would be.
but i bring only nothing.
though all i have i'd give.



wrote a song for somebody. haha. but the person will never hear me sing it, i guess. don't understand the song? it's pretty abstract confusion.

Delirious - Bliss

I feel lonely when it's you I miss
I feel crazy when I dream like this
I've travelled all this way for just this
Rock 'n' roll is everything
Everything to a lonely man
And never will I bow to you

I, I'm not backing down
I, I'm not backing down

Take me to the place where eagles fly
Where my love for you (Jesus!) I never can deny
If I'm right then you are wrong
If I'm wrong then I really lived
And If I die with no reward
Then I know I had peace 'cause I carried the sword

I, I'm not backing down
I, I'm not backing down

It's the simple things that satisfy
Keeps my feet on the ground and my head in the sky
I love you more than I can say
And I won't change my mind on the choices I made

today's teacher's day celebration was quite bad. no atmosphere, didn't have a cj feel at all. true, it may have been tough to organize it with the school population being the biggest it's ever been, but i still think the 31st could have probably done a better job.

so i dropped by the library for a while before i came back. returned my book late, again. at least its only 2 days this time. well, borrowed three more. :)

and now i'm sitting at home, gonna study in the afternoon before going out to dinner. think i wanna play some guitar.


many thanks to all the teachers who have been really influential to me in my school life. ms koh (psle), mrs lu-lim (sec 1,2), mr amos goh(sec 3,4), mr alex kwee(j1,2). i've probably been a let down but where i am right now is not too shoddy. thanks for getting me here though there was a lack of an effort on my part. really admire you for what give up in your lives for us to advance ours. respect to you.

finished the recording yesterday! well, my part at least. and everybody else's too.. just ben n lydia left. well, good luck to you two! but when it is finished, u'll be so relieved and so satisfied. haha! i can't wait to hear the finished product though. it may not be world class, but it'd be beautifully definitely. welll, if u two want me to go down and support/laugh at you when you have to do your part, just drop me a sms. :))

i wished prelims wouldnt come so soon. i don't think i will finish. michelle cher is crazy. saw her at the bus stop today and her grades are damn good la. i feel inferior now. bam bam.

today, had a pretty relaxed day in sch, didnt study during the break. coz had to see mr alex kwee for consultation during the break. my problem with essay is that i don't follow through enough. then went down to church with walter. at least spent some good 2 hours studying there. and walter wrote a damm beautiful poem man. go ask him about it. haahahaa. oh yea, saw eric and pei meng and rachel(duh, she's youth worker) there now.

wondering why i'm putting a lot of names in this entry? coz i realize there are practically zero names in my entries. i shall try to include others more. why? because i don't want to be so self-centered. the world is not about me. i should try to value others more.

well, now on to some more touchy stuff. (no more names coz it is touchy.)

observed some one. well, seeing his actions, i think he is really wonderful. the way he cares for his brothers in the church. not just a sacrifice of his finance(i must say he is not so exceptionally rich so whatever he gives must me quite a considerable pinch) but also an extra attention to detail as well. that extra attention to detail? just nails it man. he rocks.

but it made me think, why do i not love others the way he does? definitely, i couldnt have given up my own self-interests like he did.

when i look at myself, i can't see anything exceptional about me. not exceptionally good at being a friend to my friends, not attractive, not charismatic, not good in the music i strive to do. truth be told, i always think if anything is not spectacular, it is not good enough. but it simply just makes me rate myself as not good enough. so who am i supposed to be in this world?

i don't know what will set me apart from the rest. i'm just striving to be the best person i can be. i guess one day, it'll all be crystal clear. why i am who i am, and what am i going to be. the answer to the questions, i'll seek them for the rest of my life.