Thursday, August 18, 2005
do you sometimes ask yourself where do you place your worth?
simple question really. why are you existing? of what significance are you to the world?
sometimes i feel rather insignificant. like if i passed on tmr, i'd not be missed. so most times, i try to live my life for myself only. like, no matter what i do, it wouldn't affect you much anyway. so why should i be considerate of you?
but i realized maybe i do influence others much more than i think. just as another one of us, i have great potential to change how things are. how much to influence, for good or for bad is a choice really.
and i know, there is someone who values me a lot. my Creator. to live, to use my life to glorify Him is what He gave me this life for.
so tell me, why should i waste my life so stupidly?
And the wonder of it all is that I'm living just to fallMore in love with youbut we do get lost some times. well, most of the time actually. i've wasted my life pretty much since primary school. from a pretty good PSLE aggregate, i decided to go to a sec sch just because it was near my home. my academics went downhill from there. and a perfect disciplinary record went out the window, into the drain and got trampled over. dirtied but not unredeemable i guess.
can't say that it has all been bad, as i've learnt a lot along the way, prob much more shud i have been sheltered in a goody two shoes top school.
3 months before the end of my school life, i've decided i need to get it back. i want to be the top of the pile again. enough of wasting what i have been blessed with.
this may sound a lot like regret.
but read into it. regret isn't even barely there.
this is my homecoming.
i like watching Daniel Powter's Bad Day Mtv. (though i haven's seen a non-rock or worship video in months)because it gives me hope that love may actually happen in my life.so beautifully.
i need hope because i feel like it never will.(just back from browsing post secret.)