the rest of us may never understand the experience of ripping into a screaming solo with a mega rock band behind and millions of adoring fans screaming in front. to the world, a facade of absolute emotional intensity is shown. for a moment, the world is captured in a few notes played on strings. harmony and dissonance mix beautifully to express an emotion.

the rest of us, too may never know the pain that the solo is hiding. we may never know how much pain, suffering, love, everything is put into musical harmony. but to the artist, it is real. it hurts. it feels. it is life.

and that is why nobody, other than an artist himself can appreciate his work the way he does.



tribute to those who have rock stardom. for fame, for money, or for the people. you have sacrificed your life to the dysfunctional in the pursuit of music. peace. i wish peace for you.

Blessed Be Your Name
In the land that is plentiful
Where Your streams of abundance flow
Blessed be Your name

Blessed Be Your name
When I'm found in the desert place
Though I walk through the wilderness
Blessed Be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

Blessed be Your name
When the sun's shining down on me
When the world's 'all as it should be'
Blessed be Your name

Blessed be Your name
On the road marked with suffering
Though there's pain in the offering
Blessed be Your name

Every blessing You pour out
I'll turn back to praise
When the darkness closes in, Lord
Still I will say

Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your name
Blessed be the name of the Lord
Blessed be Your glorious name

You give and take away
You give and take away
My heart will choose to say
Lord, blessed be Your name

when the most incredible thing comes your way, you don't just simply give it up do you?

even if it seems so obviously out of reach, you don't want to believe. you'd rather hold on to a dim hope which probably can never ignite. i'm holding on to it, because right now, i can't bring myself to just let go.

that is not to say that i'll not be looking out for other options. i will have to. such is life. but i know that this dim hope will never fade. even if it is extinguished, it's candle will still be treasured. even if it is someone else's to have, it'd still have a special place. because such is the beauty and incredibleness of it, that it draws one to never let go. like a spell which cannot be lifted, but made less intense. it'd be a light i'd guard with honour, and never let it come to harm. may not be mine to have, but one i will always be looking out for.

i am your hero masquerading as just any other guy from now on.

i've decided i like elton john's voice. though i hear he's gay. but his voice is really, really nice.

ok, its mainly cause of this song.

Collective Soul(feat Elton John) - Perfect Day.

There she stumbles, falling to her knees,
I think she tripped on reality,
I have witnessed, tragic comedies.
that's the world in which she leads

well i would walk a million miles,
to give her, all that she needs,
but she would a walk a million more,
to do what she believes
she'll have a perfect day

troubles blooming, innocence will fade,
still, she's dry through all the rain,
there;s no purpose, she has yet to crave,
she's like the big dog on parade,

well i would a million miles,
to give her, all that she needs,
she would walk a million more,
to do well as she pleased,
she had a perfect day,

i can't figure this one out,
i've no words here to explain,
she'll just sugar kiss me off,
she'll just have another perfect day

A long, long time ago..


God created the cow, and gave it eighty years of life.

"eighty years of life to slog, and work hard to till the land and produce milk for someone else?" the cow thought to himself, and decided to give half of that back to God. God accepted it.


Then, God created the monkey, to entertain, and bring joy and laughter to the world. twenty years for the monkey.

however, the joker monkey thought, "twenty years to be mere entertainment for others? it is quite a worthless existence. ten is enough." and so, God took the ten years back again.


God then created the dog, to be a best friend to man. Well, actually to sit on the porch and bark intruders away. to the dog, He gave twenty years too.

"twenty years of barking? ten will do, thank you." and so the dog, too returned half of its life.


Now, the time has come. For God to create man. man was to eat, sleep and play. now, God decided to give the man twenty years too.

man's reaction: "TWENTY? twenty years to eat, sleep and play? such a good life, twenty where got enough. God, tell you what. i'll take all of the life that the cow, monkey and dog gave back to you."

And so, God gave the cow's, monkey's and dog's rejected life to the man.

That is why a man's life usually layouts as follows.

20 years of eat, sleep, play.

then, 40 years of slogging like a cow in the workplace.

10 years of doing monkey tricks to entertain the grandchildren.

and the final 10, sitting out at the porch grumpily, barking out at anyone.


heheh. pastor raymond's joke at 8am. he's good at joke telling. but somehow, it doesnt come out the same in writing.

but what really is the purpose of life? is it as sad as in that joke? well, no. i don't believe so. and here is an offer,of the purpose of life up for grabs.

check out www.40days.sg or ask me about the 40 days campaign.

discover your life purposes in 40 days.


well, church was good. worship didnt sound too bad, tho i think i let the tone of the guitar affect my playing a bit. it kinda sounded too harsh, not to my liking. ignorable though, when compared to the meaning i am playing for.

and i'm feeling really woozy now. can't believe i lost sleep last night over some silly matters. ahh more studying today. i don't wanna fall behind. not much time left till A's. i am not gonna screw this up.