may be making a major decision tomorrow.

hanging on a thread? yeah, if u don't know how that feels like, my life seems pretty much like this. one insignificant shred holds the balance, and i may just make a decision to cut off this thread.

to me, being authentic before God is a necessity, especially in worship. we have the right to approach this throne of GRACE just as we are. that is what grace means. authencity is very important to me. in the Don Moen's song deeper in love, there is this line "my soul is thirsty Lord, to know You as I'm known." i can only approach God in authencity. i guess i must put a stop to this compromise now. i can't be not myself and try to worship God. besides, a 100% compromise doesnt really count as a compromise does it?

woaah! worship encounter was great.. shan't go into details about this since other ppl will probably already be blogging about it.

for me, i found the activities quite boring.. but can't be blamed since we're catering to such a big age group. but it was a good camp. why? encountering God is always a great experience, and it is enough to make any camp great.

425 ppl over at worship encounter! believe we just made church history.. and the best thing is this record won't stay. we'll beat it next year, and then again and again. really can feel revival heading our way, esp when pastor announced the new plans for exponential growth. hey, its hard but i've got faith. this revival feeling WILL NOT die down if we keep our faith up.

ahhh. but i didnt like the food at worship encounter. after coming back, i'm so sick of eating i tell you. they seriously have a lot of meals and food over there. it is really bad that they recycle the menu. stupid hotel. at the last meals, i was just eating and dreading the next bite. now, i've kinda lost interest in eating. even pastamania n jalan kayu prata yest didnt taste good.

watched madagascar again yesterday. watched it on the bus when going to m'sia, but couldn't hear a thing and couldn't see as well.. after watching it properly, ok la, i guess it is pretty ok. just that its very short and rather meaningless. pretty funny though. i want to watch war of the worlds or mr and mrs smith or monster in law or something like that.. ahh movie cravings.

its GSS now. planning to buy a new bag.. but then i feel so poor. i want to save up for a guitar at the end of the year though. maybe i'll just take out my old bags to use. i've got like 3 of them lying in my closet not used. my bro's using my deuter one though, which is ok since i don't really like it that much anymore. but hey, shopping anybody?

spent today studying and slacking. today, the singapore economy seemed very boring. sigh. oh wells, i have a lot to study, so better start working hard. wanted to go for judo, but decided to skip it since i have a very bad cough right now. had it ever since last week. its all the fault of second hand smoke i tell you. so for the love of koon, please stop smoking. yea, i mean you. you'll kill someone sooner or later.

was watching this doctor show on channel 5 just now. i like this teepee character. she's so dumb but so lovely. when i see people giving so much of their love, and yet get cheated or scorned or what in return, i get this funny feeling. its like some experience i share, and i have this urge to stand up for them. oh wells.

its STUDY BREAK, not HOLIDAYS anyway.

aww, come on come on.

tell me how far is heaven?