arrf// seems like things would be a whole lot better if i'm in love with God now.

damn. i really miss that kind of relationship with God.

and i cant f*king get back there.

will i ever?

Guns & Roses - Don't Cry

Talk to me softly
There's something in your eyes
Don't hang your head in sorrow
And please don't cry

I know how you feel inside I've
I've been there before
Somethin's changin' inside you
And don't you know

Don't you cry tonight
I still love you baby
Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

Give me a whisper
And give me a sigh
Give me a kiss before you
tell me goodbye

Don't you take it so hard now
And please don't take it so bad
I'll still be thinkin' of you
And the times we had...baby
And don't you cry tonight

Don't you cry tonight
Don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry tonight

And please remember that I never lied
And please remember
how I felt inside now honey
You gotta make it your own way
But you'll be alright now sugar
You'll feel better tomorrow
Come the morning light now baby

And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
And don't you cry tonight
There's a heaven above you baby
And don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry tonight
Baby maybe someday
Don't you cry
Don't you ever cry
Don't you cry
Tonight



Hey Lord, have you noticed how broken my heart is? have you noticed how far i have drifted from You? does it mean anything to You?

i think coffee makes me cry.

drank a friggin lot of coffee and tea today.. lets see, one cup of tea in the morning, another cup at starbucks.. some raspberry mango tea shit tt was sweet but tasty. and then stole like half a cup from cheok's iced chocolate some thing coffee. a few sips from tt "free" coffee on the table me and gayb found. and then another half of cheok's another different iced coffee chocolate smthing..

and all the way home on the bus, i was tearing.. maybe it was the coffee, maybe it was the cold i'm having, maybe it's an emo me, maybe it's a very cold somebody. i had my dose of all 4 today. :/

i feel like my march holiday is going down the drain.. havent done much this hols. yeaa supposed to be studying this hols, but havent done tt at all. been sleeping A LOT though. maybe tts good cause its rest. maybe it'll be a good time to catch up with all my church and non-cj friends but somehow everyone's not free and i'm too lazy to go call lar. i don't wanna hibernate for a week! it's like wasting my week..

sigh the coffee.. argh. i wish i could puke it all out right now. i think i am gonna die of coffee cancer or something. or lose all my hair or grow an even bigger tummy or something. i'm sure drinking so much coffee has adverse side effects. ok i shall go stick a finger into my throat now and puke em all out.





no i was just joking. tts crazy. pple who have bullimia or anorexia do this right? tt must hurt. firstly its silly to think tt thin is beautiful.. i think voluptous is beautiful. well maybe i know of more ppl who are not thin but frikkin beautiful. and a beautiful soul is more beautiful than any other pretty face lar. and how can sticking ur fingers into ur throat be a beautiful act.

oh wells, signing off. go listen to yellow card's empty apartment.. i like it. :D

So close no matter how far
Couldn't be much more from the heart
Forever trust in who we are
And nothing else matters

Never opened myself this way
Life is ours, we live it our way
All these words I don't just say
And nothing else matters

Trust I seek and I find in you
Every day for us something new
Open mind for a different view
And nothing else matters

Never cared for what they do
Never cared for what they know
But I know

..... Nothing Else Matters - Metallica


tts a nice song up there.. not metallica's typical heavy stuff. oh well, i guess just the name metallica would turn lots of pple off. :/

i think it will be really sucky if one day the girl who you thought was perfect, and you really love and wanted is dating another guy. well, you can't stop the girl from dating other guys just cause you like her, and you just know that no other guy can love her the way you love her.

and the whole dating concept is junky. like you can always take out ppl for dates just so fun, and it is MUCH MUCH easier dating/flirting with someone who is not the one you really like, and when you come across the right one, the one you really, really like, you fumble. if only we knew who we were meant for, and we all knew and there are no conflicting agendas.

ahh. i don't know what i'm talking about...

reasons why you shouldn't blow into a packet of milk at night:

1. the milk will squirt out all over you.
2. it is not very smart as milk is kinda sweet and sticky
3. it is too cold and i am too lazy to go wash up again.


ahhh. haha. wtf man. rubbish. haf fun ppl..

this post is kinda late..

well, rocka is finally over.. haha. the time on stage was fun.. really. so liberating to be whacking out those riffs and chords. and even though i didnt get any solos and put in a shreddy piece at the end coz i didnt care to learn the last part of boulevard, i think it was pretty fun still. esp when we kicked into the rock part for my immortal. tt rocked. haha.

the other bands were really good, particularly makan and sophie. makan was kinda lousy thru the rehearsals, but really rocked on the real thing.. oh well, they're them.

and sports day is over too. wasn't very involved in this one though.. its kinda sad tt the turnout didnt hit the target but its probably cause of the lack of prep and publicity time.. oh wells. S.W.E.A.T. got a lot more hype. but hey sports com, no worries.. at least for this one, 100% of newcomers who stayed thru had plenty of fun. and the next one, lets have more hype..

S.W.E.A.T. II !

ok oasis is coming up, the source of love.. don't really feel the hype personally, but tts probably coz i'm not very involved in this one too. for ppl to really get the hype, they got to be involved! and hype is what it's all about. hahaah. lame. 27th march, easter sunday if i'm not wrong. again, free dinner and a free movie this time i think? come on down everyone!

on another note, it feels like i'm missing something, or someone. like at the peak of all the stuff going on this week, i just felt like i needed someone so much. sigh. you know what i mean. maybe it is because of some human reason, or more possibly, because i didn't commit what i did all to God, as my dear friend has told me.

sigh. i hope i can get through this..