pretty tiring week. today is probably the only day i can sit around in the afternoon typing a blog entry..

ok rocka's this friday.. they say our boulevard is sucky, but i don't really know cause i can't hear. sigh. it's really horrid to rehearse everyday. if not for joshua, marcus n derek having cca, we'd probably be rehearsing today also. the sc is just too uptight la. sigh.

i wanna go crowdsurfing but i doubt they'll let, and the crowd probably wouldnt catch. sigh. i don't really feel excited about rocka. don't know why. maybe its not me musically?

ho seng chye suddenly praised me today. maybe i didnt do tt badly in my common test after all. he said i was a lazy bum last year, which is very true. i shall stop being a lazy bum. it is really totally stupid to give up so many things just because of laziness.

really don't know where i am heading in life. i am considering going into social sciences, design or music. my personal fav would be music, but i don't know if i can get in, and the future seems bleak for that. oh wells.. gonna websurf a bit looking for courses. i do hope to go overseas though. breakaway. heh.

still must prepare for the wet weather plan for sports day. sigh.. i hate it that i'm doing something that may or may not be used. could be a total waste of effort. sigh...

and i feel so fat right now. stupid brother paul..

i am a little, no actually very jaded now. i just want to get a break from all this gizmo of studies and cj's kind of social life. just wanna go stone with the paradox guys, or have the sweet fellowship of youth camp again.. i actually feel very not myself in cj sometimes. i am tired of this busy life, and being busy while still trying to figure out what's going on.

and also the tsunami victims. the concern for them subsided as quickly as the waves did. i hate it that when i suggest saying something for the tsunami victims at the rocka during our performance, they treat it as a joke. i hate it that they treat it as a small thing, and me as though i am a joke. sigh.

in fact, a lot of goings on in the world, are somewhat you say, crazy?

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
Won’t stop 'til they’ve reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshoped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn’t make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on?
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There’s no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it’s World War III

No one cares, no one’s there
I guess we’re all just too damn busy
And money’s our first priority
It doesn’t make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what’s going on?
Tell me what’s going on
If you open your eyes
You’ll see that something is wrong

Tell me what’s wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUV’s
While kids are starving in the streets
No one cares
No one likes to share I guess life's unfair