it's quite screwed. first day of the new year.

while everyone's happy and looking forward to the start of another great year, here i am at home in the wee hours of the morning, dreading the year. homework not done, not ready nor willing to go back to school.

i think life will go back to normal despite having a great camp just behind the corner. damn. i don't want to. gonna miss quite a lot or just some ppl. so after taking a break on an oasis, we're splitting up back to our own lives again. can't i remain part of ur life when living in two vastly separated societies?

and while tsunamis are killing ppl by the thousands, i'm here whining abt homework and drifting away from friends. how selfish can i get. damn.

seriously, i think i'd be much more fulfilled if i actually went to help out in this kind of aid/relief kinda thing. and i think its cool too.

oh wells, gotta work hard, get out of school, then on to SAVING THE WORLD!

blog's back up!

first entry, on camp.

didn't have a great start to camp.. kinda like dreading it actually before camp started, and wasn't quite pleased with the programmes too. however, along the way, things changed. it's been a great learning journey for me. so it is a great camp!

for starters, God was there. this reason alone is suffice to make the camp great. alright, i won't provide a long detailed thing abt the camp. if u want one, u can check out page 3 of camp booklet. heh.

think the good thing abt the camp was the fellowship, and the worship. really felt a lot closer to church peeps, both guys n gals, and of course, stones. especially stones actually.. ;) and worship, maybe not having lots of instruments at worship helped me find the heart of worship. honestly, i was kinda distracted at first by the lack of da low end frm the bassist and the funny electric drums sound but in the end, the worship sessions turned out to be one of the best i ever had. focus on God, and the rest would fade away. coz worship is all abt God. musicians cannot screw up a worship, coz God's in charge. and worshippers are searching for God not good music. hahaa. gives me lots of confidence as a worship musician.

and i kinda lost my temper on the third day. with someone, which i cannot mention. i'm sorry i did that. after cooling down, i realize that i was actually in the wrong. things can really seem a lot different when u're on the otherside of the door. so from this, i learnt to be a lot more understanding.. :)

i love...
my group.. 3 guys and 5 girls. 5 small girls at that. needless to say, we didnt win lar.. but i'm proud of them despite all this.. hahaa.. we had fun and didnt give up without a fight. and for once, my group did not cheat! proud of em. hope the non-christians would find God and let Him into their lifes.

my bunkmates. paradox bunked together! hahaah.. damn fun sleeping with the guys. we could burst out laughing in the middle of the night. even after we decided to sleep. hahaa.

stones. the sharing we had on the last night was truly great. could see God's hand working in us. lets now be more open to each other eh? really thank God for leading us to that sharing session, and for His spirit that allowed us to share that night. i think we broke all walls between us that night.

my next door bunkmates. don't really know who's in there lar. but the few, lydia, jo n amelia, that always came out to write letters n stuff, fun talking with u gals.

the next next door bunkmates. small girls.. haha. think they were damn funny. my tummy eh. chloe laughs really funny, behave really funny, and they bring soft toys to camp! hahaa.. hilarious. i'm gonna steal them someday. leah's green frog especially.

the next door on the otherside. daryl n friends. scandalous ah tt room. haha. thanks for all the food i went over to take. and chak yan, i think i was mean to you. sorry. hope u guys find God in ur lifes dudes.

worship leaders n musicians i played with. second day: walter, allan, amelia, lydia, joanne. walter i think u lead well. seriously man. and allan of coz, thanks for helping me with da guitaring. i admit i'm too lazy for acoustic lar. haha. fourth day: clarice, clemence buk, allan, amelia n gaius. clarice suddenly can become so hyper one. haha.. i think she is good at this kinda evangelistic worship thing. non-threatening yet worshipful. clemence, wah u're like grace. thanks for shouting out the chords for this is my desire. heh. amelia, yea i like ur voice. or croaking. gaius, nice song! i wanna write songs too u know. :p

friend: cindy. i know i wasn't the best friend at camp lah. my handwriting.. sigh. hope u liked the biscuit and sweet i gave you. :) btw, thank you for helping me out in the worship ministry and all the advice you always give!

friend: amelia. i knew u were my friend right from the start actually. haha. of all ppl u got my card. thanks for the cards, sweet, n company! u're the best friend at camp!

walter. thanks for the prayer. now i'm really touched. haha.. u're great dude. rock on!

camp com. great camp!

and everybody else. camp rocked coz of every single one of u there. rock on! and hope to see u in yf.

GOD. what can i say? nothing would be what it is without you.

tts all for now. ;p