Everything’s so blurry, and everyone’s so fake
And everybody’s empty, and everything is so messed up
Preoccupied without you, I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawl
you could be my someone you could be my scene
You know that I’ll protect you from all of the obscene
I wonder what you’re doing Imagine where you are
There’s oceans in between us, and that’s not very far

Everyone is changing, there’s no one left that’s real
So make up your own ending, and let me know just how you feel
Cause I am lost with out you, I cannot live at all
my whole world surrounds you, I stumbled and I crawl
you could be my someone you could be my scene
You know that I will save you from all of the unclean
I wonder what you’re doin I wonder where you are
There’s oceans in between us but that’s not very far

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face,
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face,
This pain you gave to me

Oh nobody told me what you thought,
Nobody told me what to say
Everyone showed you where to turn,
Told you when to run away
Nobody told you where to hide,
Nobody told you what to say
everyone showed you where to turn,
Showed you when to run away

Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face,
This pain you gave to me
Can you take it all away
Can you take it all away
When you shoved it in my face,
This pain you gave to me

No!
This pain you gave to me

damn. i don't want this to get the better of me.. had problems at worship rehearsal today. i think spiritually i'm not very well.

got to go face it up and sort it out man. like right now.

can you take it all away?

i don't know lar.

today, this very familiar feeling came back. a feeling i hate so much and i spent a year avoiding.

argh.

depression

I AM 17!

cant say i've been waiting for this day though. at certain ages, you just don't wanna grow old anymore. right now i have all the freedom i need and i don't want to take on more responsibilities... ;p

anyways, have a great day.

because i am gonna have one!

we are gonna celebrate!

time to quite the whining man.

Hols gonna be great! oasis coming, youth camp to come.. jamming sessions. WOAH

come to think of it, got quite a lot of guitar playing coming up..first two services of this month and camp. probably breakthrough's gonna jam. the 8am band also.. 8am band will be two hours every week, probably starting from next month..

christmas is gonna come and it is gonna ROCK man.

think i'll write christmas cards to lots of ppl. presents pending coz i dun haf enuff money this year..

anyways i helped out at the children's camp aniwaes because i was feeling so guilty yesterday tt i msged jess. oh well so much for being mr nice. but its kinda cool.. all the kids were literally climbing all over me.. haha. the best part is the littlest ones cuddling up to u. oh gosh i cant wait to have a baby for my own..

and scott wants the rehearsal for oasis on thursday.. wat a great day to choose man. i think i'll drop by a little late. wanna spend more of the day with my parents.. because i wanna show them they are very important to me..

time to quit whining,

cause....

WE ARE GONNA CELEBRATE!

cause i miss you,
body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away,
and i breathe you and pray for the strength to stand today.

cause i love you,
whether its wrong or right,
and though i can't be with you tonight,
you don't know my heart is right by your side.

yes it is daniel beddingfield. this song's bridge expresses wat i feel. just a little different. the difference that changes every situation..

i don't know why it seems both so wrong and right at the same time and it leaves me utterly confused.

ah. this entry sucks. i don't want to continue this on the blog. if you wanna know then talk to me. i may or highly likely may not tell you anything.

by the way, for the whole weekend, my general feeling has been disappointment. i think God's preparing me for a even greater disappointment coming up this week. sigh. but then i'm not always right eh.