i don't want to be... living in lies.

i don't want to believe.. in my delusions.

i don't want to lead a life like every other.

i know i have a difference in my life.

i know i am created for much more.

i want to live by this truth:

Isaiah 53:5

i have hope. i am free. becaue of.. Jesus Christ. my lord, my redeemer, my saviour, my friend.. My God.

this thing they call sadness,
a drop of it fell on my poor blessed heart.
it stains, and starts to spread round my heart.
feels like a growing emptiness in the stomach.

love songs sings about being true to the heart,
it which can tell you no lies,
and leads to a world of wonder and romance.
but the growing emptiness,
is a stark reminder, of the absence of my heart.

bit by bit the world crumbles,
all hope falls and falters,
i remember a place where love lasts forever,
a destination not to be hasted to.

sweet heavens wait for me,
the time is not yet now,
i shall not anticipate,
may the tides bring me hope,
from the maker,
a hope of companionship in this
cold and calloused world.

for some, it may take time to fall in love with another.
for others, maybe money.
or care and sincerity for others.
there are a million things that causes people to fall in love.

for me, it'd only take you.