Answer to the last question: Mooooooo...

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out of it and turn in
And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I am

I don't think that I could take another empty moment
I don't think that I could fake another hollow smile
Well, it's not enough just to be lonely
I don't think that I could take another talk about it

Just like me, you’ve got needs
And they're only a whisper away
And we softly surrendered
To these lives that we've tendered away

No I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out of it and turn in
And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I am

don't wanna be the one who turns the whole thing over
don't wanna be somewhere where I just don't belong
Where it's not enough just to be sorry

Don't you know I feel the darkness closing in
I tried to be more than me
And I gave til it all went away
And we've only surrendered
To the worst part of these winters that we've made

But I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out of it and turn in
And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
I'm marking it down to learning
I am

All that I'll ever be
When you Lay your hands
Over me
But don't go weak on me now
I know that it's weak
But, God help me, I need this

I would not sleep in this bed of lies
So toss me out of it and turn in
And there'll be no rest for these tired eyes
I'm marking it down to learning
Cause i can..

gonna try to turn my life over, clean up my life.. been living in a kaleidoscope of grey for too long.. i want to do this. i can..

haha.. found this in my dynamics tutorial.. frickin hilarious..

CJC Dynamics tutorial Qns 23

A bull is urged to pull a cart. The bull refuses to try, citing Newton's third law of motion.

"the pull of the bull on the cart is is equal but opposite to the pull of the cart on the bull. If i can never exert a greater force on the cart than it exerts on me, how can i ever start the cart moving?" asks the bull.

How would you reply?

woah. tired..

seems like everyone thinks i'm mugging like mad. haha.. the truth be tis' i am not. slacking and mugging at the same time. slack - 60% mug - 40%. that be the truth if not an overestimate...

dunnoe wat to say. recorded the basic parts to da song just nw. redid it after the guys went home.. so i could haf smthing to play another guitar over.. hurhur.. darn bored. i wonder if i can ever write enough songs for an album... oh yea.. looking for keyboardist. so if u r a keyboardist who is patient enough with me, please apply. tag my board, call my phone, holler watever. my mind's not working..

my entries seem to be getting shorter. i get void of feelings late at night. too tired to feel laaa..

oh and good luck for ur exams, O levels, A levels, prelims, promos, psle, streaming, napfa everything.

God Bless You.

for a moment this morning, everything just seemed so wonderful. for a moment everything was alright, and it just felt wonderful. wonderful wat certain things can do isnt it? and that moment, i thought my life was going to be wonderful. wonderful wonderful. just wonderful.

but that moment passed and here we are back at real life..

firstly i need to humble myself.. i think i am so caught up with myself that i cant stand myself.. during e-team meeting i just went on and on abt something that i cant even remember now. i was suddenly all angry and weird all of a sudden. i can't believe what i did. argh.. now they must hate me. i feel like i've let everyone down.. clarice, clarence.. allan.. john who mentored me so well back then... addie. even willie koh nw tt i'm thinking.. matthew lai also? argh.. haha.. this is funny.. but i really wanna be humble. i dunnoe but i feel i'm arrogant. and i can't humble myself. this is so bad.. i am so arrogant its helpless.. i reallie wanna be humble.. really..

i want to talk to someone so bad right now!

and not anyone will do.. ARGH!

i think i made the right choice regarding alpha.. but God's in this i hope. i dun reallie noe... it just felt ok until i told everione abt it. i dun noe ok? i dun noe i dun noe.. i need to talk to someone. maybe i shud pick up the phone and call someone. havent done tt for dunno hw long man...

and i swear promo's the sickest thing ever. i dun even feel stressed now. i'm like so.... numb. and i haf this weird assurance tt i can make it. told u i'm arrogant. 2 A's 2 AO's.. i haven even ever gotten tt kind of grade in my JC life.

i think i should stop ranting and go back to wait for a wonderful moment to come again.