oh dear.. i reallie need to get to my desk and start studying.. but before i do tt i wanna update first....

today got my founders' file back.. some things inside me bothers me quite a lot nw.. haha.. ben did u write tt captain's testimony for me? woah. nw i haf access to those confidential files now.. but its kinda bothering me... ok, i guess it serves to remind me that it is all God tt has transformed me... actualli its kinda cool tt when i read it i know how bad i must haf been before sec 3.. argh. sorry to everione tt i haf offended when i was younger. but it reminds me of all that God has done for me.. maybe one day i'll type and post up the stuff inside the file.. yeap...

and ppl if u're reading my post go read psalms 15.. no idea why but please.. just go read it. i think its gotta mean smthing tt i suddenly feel like asking you to read this.. ok? go read..

hafta study nw.. God Bless ya!

PLEASE READ THROUGH! tag if possible.. ;p

have u ever felt so lost and warm at the same time that u wanna smile and cry all at the same time?

today was a good day.. haha. probably the best day of my hols... :D finally after a long time, i'm appreciating other ppl again.. like i seriously do care wat happens to them and stuff... and i can just look at them and genuinely go, "God u created him/her wonderful.. :)"

haha.. dun realli noe hw to do this so lets go in a chrolonogical order..

today i went for footprintz and spongebob squarepants and skirts cg coz cheryl asked me to play guitar for it.. haha.. i screwed up the guitar part quite a bit and i can find plenty of excuses for myself BUT, tts not the point...

footprintz ppl are quite cool.. Ravi is going to turn out a genius i think.. hhaha.. i think he is damn smart.. and then Hannah is quite a cool person too. like she's very open and engaging and she's only sec 2!.. then there's this girl, valerie who i've never noticed before.. she kinda resembles tiffany koh. but well, i was reading her blog just now thru some links was like hey she's quite cool! no bluff. and leah was there a while i think. i bet leah will be the onli footprint person reading this so i'm gonna say she's pretty and make her smile like an idiot. hi there leah! haha.. i think she's cute. and there was edwin. he's frickin hilarious i think.. and jonathan mak. he's p6! but he's damn funny.. haha.. cute little grown up kid. chloe laughs weird and behaves like a guy. but she's cool.. darn funny.. melissa is dreamy. funny hehz. and there was this joshua i think.. so sorry tt we went to the same course together and i did not say a single word or smile or anithing to him coz i had absolutely no idea he's from yf! and i think cheryl's a good person.. she's really nice to her little ones and think she's quite a stong leader.. way cool... and my brother is the CGL of footprintz! proud of him hehz..

and then went for yf.. no sermon today, went for street e.. oh and i realized i haven't spoken a single word to amelia for months already! its always like we sit not very far but far apart and i always go do stupid actions at her but we haf nv spoken! stones are noisy at yf, which is quite bad.. and got to see john again.. i dunno why but been feeling very distant from him.. sigh. at street e onli asked one person to do the survey.. guess i'm not a very street e person.. not good at it and don't believe in it... but God has His ways yea?

after that went for lunch, and stones disturbed audrey the whole time! can u imagine tt? i think audrey's an amazing person.. so patient and kind even to irritating ppl like us... she's a wow person... i see her character, i go "WOW!"

went back to church to study and for the first time, i enjoyed doing math! the questions i dunno hw to do i went to further try and do and tt feeling when i got the answers was truly amazing! God created math u noe. haha.. and lydia! dun be sorry eh.. u didn't destroy my bible.. i'm so glad tt wat's lost been found and i'm sure God has a purpose for the thing u wrote down.. maybe like God's so awesome that pondering about it makes us so stressed that we can only frown! but we'll find the message somehow... hey and go read ur guestbook.. hehz..

and i am quite scared currently too.. feels like i'm growing up but i dun reallie noe.. all of a sudden i dun feel like i wanna be a crappy and funny person animore.. i wanna be strong, i wanna help others, and i wanna be God-ly, i want to love.... maybe its just a passing fad but we'll see.. ;p and it is by God's grace that my near 17 years of life aint lived in vain and i am nt totally lost right now...

one word. no two...

God Rocks.