today was bad.. bad bad bad..

first, ms eng had to retire.. hw bad is tt?
then ppl took over my seating place again. hahaa. which is nt very bad.
and then teachers day practice. it was the freaking worst thing i've ever done in cj.

first i had to use the electric to play bass.. looking like some frikkin poser. then another perfect day, when my electric came in, they had to close the audi for night study. wth. i swear it just makes me looks bad. argh.. and i knew i wasnt playing for God or anithing near that for that matter. everytime i play for tt school thing, which is onli twice, i feel like shit afterwards... the onli ppl i enjoy playing with? either for worship or paradox.

ok but lets just get over it la.

quote from ms eng..
"success is NEVER final, failure is NEVER fatal"
"you are lucky to be in CJ.. it has the right mix of play and work"
" hehehe"
" you need to improve your handwriting"

i think it is quite cool, tt she has walked so much thru life.. at the day of her retirement now... i wonder if i'll ever get there.. sigh. and she has such a story to tell. everybody has a story to tell. when i finish mine, i don't want a story with regrets.

and i was thinking abt this a few days ago..

the hardest thing to say is "i never will"

bloody holes. i pressed the back button accidentalli and my entry is gone. so i'm gonna do a summarised version:

i've got a lot of work to do. so much that i'm drowning.
i was in a very very bad mood today. so bad tt i just wanted to tell everyone to sex off.
i failed my math retest. 37. i feel like crap.
i hate the kind of feeling i get when i fail. i never like being at the bottom of a pile.
i ate chocolate today! it was my father's birthday cake. some chocolate brownie cake tts super nice. irresistible. so i am gonna get pimples and i dun care. cakes from hilton is good. so good.

argh. it could haf been a good entry. i hate the back button on my mouse nw. the foolishly unfeeling cockroach king world is getting on my nerves today. yucks.

off to do my work. i slacked away my onli early day's afternoon. fundamental it. argh.

if u're nt reading this, i miss u.

fwaaaahhh! i'm so full that i could just explode. i tell u.. pasta reallie makes u gain weight.. i'll gain like 5 kgs from today alone. and i swear cheese is fattening. i feel like a pig now.

well wat happened was this.. i cooked dinner for my parents! hahaa.. woahh!! and i'm so glad for tt... earlier this week i asked my parents if i could do this and they let me!

u may be wondering wats the big deal about this.. but ok u see, i haven't done anithing with my parents for like one, two years? in fact the onli things i remember doing with them is my grandfather's funeral and i think my cousin's wedding...

its quite sad tt i never go out with my parents, nv go for vacations with them, and usualli nv haf much to do with them.. i reallie wish that my whole family can do stuff together. yeap. it may be something that you are getting too much of but i nv had a lot of it.. yeap so watever to u if u think i'm a pok. hahahaaa..

oh and i reallie pray that my parents can be saved. it'd just make my life man.. it'd just make my life. i'll try inviting them for OTFG... tough shot but yea.. i wanna believe that my parents can be saved. :D

and leah! the pic on ur blog is pretty. hahaa.. it gifs me some kind of weird feeling. no of coz i'd not want to take a neo print wif my bro. but yea. its reallie sweet la.

to addie and john: thanks for ur support particularly today in my erm guitaring? john tho u may never get to read this but thanks for wanting to bless me by paying for the workshop fee.. thanks. it's reallie good that someone cares abt me. tho i won't let u pay, but i've been blessed. thanks man. and addie for telling me abt the website.. thanks too. u're my cgl and supporting my interest, tts woah. i'm reallie blessed. thankss man. thanks.

and to everyone who brought their friends to alpha yest, another big thankyou. Jess for bring like 7 frens, qingying for 2 i think, erm rachel and friends, lydia for bringing fiona, and reallie just about everyone. thanks to the alpha team too, clemence for his last min log stuff, edmund food and eric for all da admin work. clarice for all da advice and help, jem too. audrey for being so big sisterly.

i think i'll never match up to all thos ppl mentioned above for character. yeap. u guys rock.

most imptly, i'd like to thank God for it all comes from him

may i not be a disgrace, Amen.