This is stupid.. i can't start studying tho my exams is in like two weeks.. my notes are all over and in a mess... i need files files files! for all my notes.. but it is plain stupid how my life is always in a mess..
but God loves me.. i think i am starting to get back in order with God.. mainly because of playing for worship in BB camp recently, and my current interest in worship stuff... all of God's work tho..
i'm nt saying tt i am suddenly "holy" coz of playing for worship..it was wat i learnt from ben and allan before and after that.. seems like they were really ministered to during their worship camp thing.. hmm.. stuff i learnt.
1. When playing for worship, it is especially impt to be clear of sins and any grudges you hold.. Sin separates man from God. so if there is still sin in your heart, it is hard to connect to God during worship which is very impt for a worship musician.. also, grudges.. if you come to worship with hate in your heart, it is a barrier to connecting with God too, as it is ungodly..
2. Its all about God. the difference between a worship band and a normal band is that a worship team would give all glory to God, while a band is after personal glorification.. hmmm.. if i even want to get in to the worship ministry, i have to deny my desires of being recognized for being good musically and stuff or of being damn cool.. playing music for my God is what i want to do.. but i would also like to pursue my interest in music.. so there's me the aspiring worship musician and me the aspiring secular musician i guess.. but both loves God!
3. For the music to sound good, it takes a collective effort, from the whole band.. like allan says, time is a very impt factor in making music.. if the different instruments aren't playing to the same beat it could just pass off as noise.. a single band member cannot hope to take a most impt role.. it is not the skills of individual member of the band that gives the basis of good music but the coordination..
4. All of a sudden i remember something that wei siang taught me once... i won't mind playing very very little if it makes the song sound good.. if that's what the song requires then that will be what i do.. not meaning that i won't improvise on my parts but like if it isn't beneficial to the music of the band, i wouldn't do it just because i am bored because i have nothing to play..
haha.. pretty much irrelevant to the pple who are not interested in music and worship and stuff i guess..
aniwaes just came back from bb camp which was pretty ok.. first few days was pretty crappy.. for me tt is but i guess quite a good experience for the younger boys.. i was basically slacking thruout and sometimes stepping out when see kiat was out of control of the boys... and i did the special nite for the camp coz i just wanted to do something for tt camp.. guess the boys were quite on and they enjoyed themselves.. lamne and crappy as all last nights of camp is..haha.. glory to God that i did not screw up my first emcee-ing job.. something new to me.. :)
personally not very happy with the level of involvement of the senior ncos in the camp.. its like they totally want to just slack. i mean slacking is ok when it doesnt produce negative consequences or when you are not needed.. it was just too much at the camp, especially the way they behaved in front of the juniors.. as senior ncos they are looked up to and the example they are setting is just too plain disgusting.. haha.. dun wanna go into details but it is most saddening that my closer friends are the ones who are the main culprits.. oh well.. i tried changing it but failed.. every dog has his darned day..
i need 3 ring files or 4 for my notes.. gonna hunt for them now, after i finish blog reading.. may God's blessing and love be with you like it is always meant to be..