I am glad for the rain
For there is beauty in the rain..

I can't take the pain..
But God will be my strength...

Life hasn't been real good lately.. kinda sad.. my dad just released my pet bird.. it was super cute.. can talk.. and always say crap to cheer me up... I guess now that it's gone, i haf no one to pour my feelings out to anymore..

she's too busy for me, or she simply doesnt care anymore..

well, i dunnoe.. i guess i should just let go.. she's found her happiness elsewhere maybe? i think i shouldn't try too hard to hold on.. as long as i know that she's happy, i'll juz hafta shut myself off.. its so hard, but its for the best i guess...

timetable now is horrid.. i end at five everyday, except wednesday which is CCA day and i'd be in sch till even later.. wish i had a little more time... maybe laz time i was too busy for her or smthing, but nw she's gone i wish i had treated her right...

now i hafta rush till like siao for my publicity deadline.. and its crazy.... next two days i've got canoeing course, which means i won't be at home or in church to do it.. i dunnoe hw i am going to do it but i'm sure i will.. God's here for me.. I believe.....

I think i won't stay at yJ.. its nt the place for me i guess.. today during lecture, i got frikkin frustrated coz the lecturer was going so slow.. and she kept making mistakes.. it was crazy lo... so so so so so so slow.. can't take it...

i'm falling sick.. feeling flu-sy at the moment.. but i guess i'd haf to stay strong.. for the challenges ahead, to put behind the past.. STRENGTH! FAITH! the joy of the lord shall be my strength....

Shall...

not maybe, not with a trace of doubt..

the joy of the Lord SHALL be my strength...

i'll find joy again....