I forgot my username. I did.

WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH ME?

its not because i forgot my username baby.. I think i'm depressed. Inflate me someone..

I should be happy. really i should. A million things are going good for me.. i finally got a chance to do founders.. it was wat i had prayed for.. i've gotten it. My O's r over.. i've been looking forward to this.. I've gt some pretty cool friends.. I've a chance to serve.. I've a chance to lead.. I can get into a JC. I've gotten the new life tt i always wanted. i've got a chance to grab hold of my life Right NOW and turn it around.. Everything in my life is fucking fine.. But i'm not..

Wadda heck is wrong wif me darlings?

i think i'm juz plain useless.. i suck.. so? i'm nt feeling really happy.. havent been ecstatic for dunno hw long..i think i'm a freakin loser.. i cant run my life.. everybody else can.. look at every fucker down the street.. they do perfectly fine in this game of life.. but me? i cant.. i cant even run my life..i always mess up.. i wanna give up running my life.. i really do..

sometimes, i really feel like telling a big gigantic fuck u to everybody.. yea.. EVERYBODY.. i dunnoe.. its not tt i hate them or smthing.. its nt even like i dun like them.. i like them perfectly much.. but.. i dunnoe.. it juz makes me feel horrible, looking at other pple.. compare tt to my pathetic existence.. i hate tt.. i hate being inferior to everyone.. EVERYONE.. wadda?

and i'm fucking vulgar in this entry.. tho i dun wanna be.. nw everibody will think i'm some stupid ah beng wif a stiff middle finger.. but ah bengs dun point middle finger wat.. they go cussing.. punks do more middle fingering..

My life's great pple, but i'm not..

and i used to feel great abt myself..