Hi.. Got back more results today..

English B3
Chinese B3
Science A1

my geog is 32/50, dnt theory part is 64.5/100.. sigh.. itz already 7 points in my L1R5.. and the 7 points includes 2 of my best subject.. i wanted like 12-15 pts... was prepared for bad results tho, coz i didnt prepare all tt much.. pls, pls, let it be under 15.....

and so, was reading this book.. set me thinking on lots of stuff..

Predator, Prey?

Some people are like predators, they hunt. they are succesful. but people suffer because of them. Others are prey, they are kind, they are nice. they may be happy, but not successful. Nice people suffer. people who work for their own cause wins.

And wat is the meaning of life?

Everyday, we go thru loads of work. school work, homework, house work, work work? but what are we really working for? To be able to survive? hardly. you would able to survive by working a lot less.. Success? that could be it. People stuck on sustainablity aren't happy. everyone's trying to work out of it. people want to succeed, but wat exactly is succesS?

Success

People want to be above others. above, right high up. invulnerability? that could be it.. i believe no one works to be arrogant. But you work so hard, and you aren't happy. u betray ur morals. u betray urself. wat success is there?


And a sad fact i learnt about this world. u get it, or u don't. no use arguing u were so close, or u should have deserved better. lookie, if u blame others, u're not in control of ur own life. if you have control of your life, it really is u who mattered.. u got the results thru ur effort. don't blame other stuff. so u say conditions were bad, unfair to u. the truth is u juz didnt handle the crisis well.. it is still u..
yes.. You.

Haha.. i dun reallie noe wat i'm toking.. maybe i shall try typing out again when i'm not so messed up..

My results so far:

Eng: Compre(Qns) 21/25
Compo 27/40

Chi Paper 1 36.5/70
Paper 2 55/80

Sc MCQs 33/40
Chem part 51/65


ARGH!

wadda hell happened to me? sigh.. wish wasnt sick during exams.. suddenly i wanna be juz like any other asshole n blame everything else for my underperformance... i hate this kinda results i'm getting. it would be ok to anyone else, maybe even good, but i knew if i actualli had studied for it, it would be loads n loads better. not like this!

all of a sudden, i juz wanna remember n think hw disadvantaged i was and blah blah blah CRAP!

but i do know it is mainly me tts the problem.. yes.. me.. i recognize this..and listen, i won't let it go on anymore. look out.