300th! moved to http://rockinginyourlight.blogspot.com/ :) see you there.

move on, little boy.
the world's got no time for you.
neither sympathy, nor love
all your wants will be a long time coming.

try to be there for someone in need,
they'll leave when the skies are fair.
fair weathered friends?
love will leave u with the complete opposite.

because the world is happy,
so is she.
everybody's singing and dancing,
but the sad ones in a dark corner they'll sit.



so thanks world, for being just cold to me.

it is just a rather sad night. plenty going on in my life.. bereavements, a temporary family member, rejection, fear, panic, delusions. would it be too much for me to ask you to be there for me?

apparently, yes. so thank you and have a nice day.


the world's spinning happily. :)

Ferdie Flores may be alright!

http://www.fbc-misawa.org/missionaries/Flores.htm

don't know which is real. but still, i'm praying for him to be ok.

it seems unthinkable that there'd still be ppl be willing to be persecuted for God. looking at where i am now, it seems a pretty far shot. but it is the best thing in the world to be living in His love, and for Him.

His love is so real. i know it.

i think for what He did, He deserves every morsel of our being that we can give to Him. every single bit we refuse to surrender, clearly it should be His.

if we were to distinguish clearly between right and wrong, it is not impossible. it is really just black and white. the grey parts are just what we create ourselves. because there is absolute truth. just that we refuse to bite the bullet and admit that we could possibly be wrong.

but it is a choice, to be right, or to be wrong. one can choose either path to take. choice is not a void.

for me, i choose to be right. i'd rather walk in the light.

but what if i fall? that's where His love is real.


Thank You, Lord. you have been teaching me even when i've strayed.

end of the week already.. been spending most of the time in the fridge of CJ, studying. not really doing a lot today, or so it feels, but at least i am doing, eh? sure beats what i can do at home. thank God for the fellas stuck in the fridge too. marcus, joshua, derek.. the very regulars.

i wrote on the condensed vapour outside the library yesterday, "mugs for sale!" a more appropriate one would have been "frozen mugs for sale!" go figure.

oh wells, i suddenly feel very alienated from church and all. must try to get involved more. but i'll probably be half gone next year, with ns and all. but i am gonna try not to slip away, as hard as i can. but sometimes things are just not within my control. trust the One up there then. what'd He have me do? but like what edmund said in cg today, "religion is a guy in church thinking about fishing, christianity is about a guy fishing thinking about God." i don't want to lose being in touch with God. have faith, koon.

nearly reaching my 300th post. wow, eh? but my blog's deteoriated so much. just been posting melancholic rantings lately. i wish i could blog like i used to, or i could actually write to serve others or something. but i can't get out of my negativity. sometimes i'm so pessimistic it's funny.

for some reason, i dont want to be near my phone. for the same reason, i feel bad, because i am not behaving as a christian should.

hmm should i post some last day pics? but blogger always has problems loading pics. tell you what, i'll give u the url.

http://www.kodakgallery.com/ShareLandingSignin.jsp?Uc=11no724d.4hy7iccl&Uy=-hjtgoy&Upost_signin=Slideshow.jsp%3Fmode%3Dfromshare&Ux=0&UV=650606257866_105336329205

courtesy of miss cheryl lee.

Foo Fighters & Norah Jones - Virginia Moon


Dearest constellation, heaven surroundin' you
Stay there, soft and blue. Virginia Moon, I'll wait for you tonight
Sweetest invitation, breaking the day in two
Feelin' like I do, Virginia Moon, I'll wait for you tonight

And now our shades become shadows in your light
In the morning wind we're through and tomorrow rescues you,
I will say goodnight

Secret fascination, whisper a quiet tune
Hear me callin' you, Virginia Moon, I'll wait for you tonight

And now our shades become shadows in your light
In the morning wind we're through and tomorrow rescues you,

I will say goodnight
Virginia Moon, I'll wait for you tonight
And now our shades become shadows in your light
In the morning wind we're through and tomorrow rescues you,

I will say goodnight
I will say goodnight
I will say goodnight


yes, i am a pseudo jazz-enthusiast. i like jazzy stuff but can't say i like jazz cause i can't swallow the genre as a whole. only certain parts. ask me to send you the song ok? :)

if you set a 5-cent coin right before your eyes, all you see of the world is a mere 5-cents worth.

lose the 5-cents, gain the world.








blaah. i am gonna be a philosopher with all these lamericko quotes.

haha and i'm falling sick. damn it. but with faith, i'll wake up fine tmr yea?

i think it is losercoffee that is making me sick.. been drinking so much of it. and actually after drinking it, my throat usually feels kinda parched. what is losercoffee u may ask? it is the kind of iced or hot coffee u get from vending machines where u place 40-cents in and u can choose from a variety of drinks. options of more or less sugar doesn't make it any more or less loser. it is simply the worst coffee u can ever get. i make better coffee with 3-in-1 packets though probably the same solution is used. but losercoffee is very very addictive. i don't know why it tastes so vile, but i keep wanting more of it. one day i can be a spokesmodel for losercoffee....

"*coughs* losercoffee makes u lose ur voice....." says i, while holding up the now-world-recognized L-for-Loser sign.

but on a more serious note, what i learnt from sir willie, other than the 5-cents lesson...

"..but to seat at my right or left is not for me to grant. These places belong to those for whom they have been prepared... ...instead, whoever wants to become great among you must be your servant, and whoever wants to be first must be slave of all. For even the Son of Man did not come to be served, but to serve and to give His life as a ransom for many.." -Mark 10:43-45

if you keep looking at your own problems, soon you see nothing else but your own problems. but if you look to others and help with theirs, soon when you look back at yourself, your problem ceases to exist.

to be a little less self-serving and more others-oriented.


and point to note, i need to check my unwarranted lack of humility. i think it is time before He humbles me.

"if u keep piling a person with loads of shit, he'll become a pile of shit."



just what do You want with me?

i've been waiting. but the way things are going now seems like You are turning me away...

the capstone that the builders rejected?


be faithful with little things.